Tuesday, August 16, 2011

16/8

It has been a month living in NUS. Well, at first I heard people said the food here was going to be terrible but so far I don't think the same way, the food indeed really satisfy me, the only problem I am facing now is....I am eating too much. Wondering why I can't control myself during dinner time, I am always tempted to eat two sets of dinner.Eventually, ya, I always give in to that temptation. Well, maybe the food here is really nice, or actually I am suffering a minor psychological problem. Perhaps, I choose to eat in order not to get too stress up. Maybe, I feel better eating rather than studying. It is like an excuse, the longer time you spend on meal, the shorter time you spend on studying. So,  maybe I choose to drag my meal time more, by eating more.

Whoever reading this, may think I will get fat very soon. Will see how my body turn out in few months time, but I am quite confident, obesity will not happen on me, especially living in SG, where most of the people has to get used to walking fast and sweating almost every day. I am quite sure Singaporean or people who are now living here stand no chance to get fat. In some point, the lifestyle here is indeed an advantage to maintain a slim body.

So, girls who are struggling with weight problem,  perhaps making an effort to secure a place for you to live in Singapore is not a bad idea. However, you must get prepared to love the crowd here, the crowds are everywhere, struggling to get a tiny little space for themselves to walk and stand. Well, you can't complain much since many brains coming into Singapore so frequently, so let us squeeze and squeeze to get a place for your ownselves, or else you should just wait for the next bus or MRT~~~~~



Thursday, August 4, 2011

Singaporean

Engin O week 11 is really a soso camp, which I find it tiring and not fun.
I purposely join this camp because I have to start networking in NUS, just to make sure I won't find it tough to get a few project partners in future. However, I realize how different the topic of Singaporean in a conversation and make it hard for me to socialize with this group of people. Not because of the language they speak but the content itself is quite different. Their jokes are different and I have to act like I really feel funny in order not to show a sign of awkwardness on my face. The stuff they assume to be interesting but I can only get bored. Being part of this community is quite a challenging task. I hope I can find my own way to adapt and get used to this new society and able to get along really well with Singaporeans.

All and all, I still find using Mandarin in a conversation can really make it more friendly and comfortable together with a sense of belonging. I miss talking in a really relax manner with my friends in Malaysia, where I can totally be myself.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

My days in Singapore.

12 July 2011 is the first time in my life I step into the land of Singapore. This is the country I never anticipate to enter because I show no interest to it. However, the only thing I am excited being in this place is to take a look what is National University of Singapore. Well, NUS is actually quite big but the seniors don't think that way because they claimed that they could walk around the whole NUS using 80 minutes and they can even memorize the map of NUS. Well, definitely Singapore is a small country and the land property is fewer, so I think we can't expect it to be really huge like a city. At least, the size of it, to me is not bad, and never a disappointment.

Until now, my favourite moment being here is joining the Association Malaysia Chinese Independent School Alumni (AMCISA) Freshman Orientation Camp (FOC). This is the best camp I have ever joined and none of the camp I organized or joined in the past can compare to this camp. The activity was cool, fun and very meaningful. I will never have such a great start in NUS without AMCISA.
In this camp, I find there are friends that could really play hard and study hard together. They are understanding and basically all of the freshman here are smart ass, really really smart and this is really an excitement.

Another interesting thing I find here is, Tsun Jin graduates who enter NUS are really little. The two largest group of students from Chinese Independent Schools are Foon Yew High School and Chong Hwa High School(KL). However, none of these matters, I just hope students from Tsun Jin will increase in future. Among the groups, I like students who came from Foon Yew high school most. They have the same kind of pleasant personality that I admire. Most of them are very active, brave, wise, outspoken and with right attitude. There are many things I got inspired by them and it makes me to have the desire to change for a better me. I am going to stick to them and learn with them, they are very special to me. I hope Tsun Jin can educate the students like the way Foon Yew did. I will definitely send my future children into Foon Yew if I have the chance. Students from Foon Yew are easy to be friends. I like them very much.

Monday, July 11, 2011

A start of my new journey

Okay, these are the last seven hours in my  place of living, my bedroom was nicely clean up, became more empty. First time in my life, I see my room in this kind of situation, the traces of me in my room are the least , never been like that before All this while, the room was messy, many stuff on the desk, but now it is really tidy and empty. "Ya room, your master is going to leave you, leave you clean and tidy". While packing and cleaning the room, I "pack " my feelings too. Goodbye friends and family. Hope all of us get used to the absence of me in Malaysia very soon, especially to my parents.

Someone told me how to deal with the feelings of the last days being in my own hometown. I have to think I will meet up with new friends which is going to be fun, I have to think I have had great times with my friends and family here and I have to feel grateful for that, I have to think anyhow I will be leaving this place eventually sooner or later. Ya, right ways to deal with the feeling of extreme reluctance, but still it is eating me.Anyway, I believe it is temporary, every year all students go through the same kind of process. Sure, it is just a very usual situation. All I can do to feel better other than thinking the way someone suggested me, I think it will be to recall all stuff that happened with some BFFs, family and friends. The only way to take away those memories with me, good or bad, they are all special, and they are the only thing left I can bring away with me. Then, I have to put down everything in the past, and look forward the journey awaiting me, nothing to hold me back.

This is the other journey, whatever I achieved in the past, shouldn't bring me  more pride, but as a reminder how I actually did it. This is another start from zero, and I have to walk it in humility. A humble heart, a passion to go further and further, an ongoing determination and a mind with more self-control than before are what I need to always remember. Hope not to lose myself, hope I will change better, hope I will continue to excel in many areas, and hope to walk with my Lord always.

Bye, my home..

Monday, June 27, 2011

Brothers...Sisters

Today,all of a sudden just looking at a student in Tsun Jin which his facebook name is Jason Goh, sitting beside his brother, taking a break at the canteen after volleyball practice. Not really know these two students since I am not from Tsun Jin volleyball team, considered strangers to me. Well, I just envy the way they look, not because they are more nice looking or look smarter, but just feeling "why on earth two person can look alike".

Talking nonsense, both of them are birth brothers.Well, sure we don't need to even introduce when you have a birth brother or sister standing beside you, your look and his/her look explain almost everything, the connection the both humanbeing have,... "you guys are brothers, you girls are sisters".
Ya, you two share almost the same height. Ya, you two share almost the same eyes, nose, cheek, hair style, brains, whatever body parts you can mention. Something similar, having the sense of belonging to one another, something in common to compare the differences....to compare from the common and to mention the differences? Sounds contradict and funny...

The most important part is having the same blood flowing in different bodies...

Yup, that's the most important part, the blood, the covenant that ensures no matter what on earth that will be happening to you guys, or you girls, like it or not, it will never change the fact that you guys and you girls will always be still brothers and sisters, from the same womb, being taught under the same roof.
How I wish my mum and her "should be" firstborn on year 1991 made it through during then.
Then when we guys both standing beside each other will know we are somehow related in some ways without any introduction. I really wish to have the sense of belonging and bonded to someone around my age.

Of course, I am still glad to have my mum and dad, but I hungry for more than that...I need someone to fight, I need someone to argue, I need someone to also fight then cooperate and find a solution so everyone can be happy....perhaps, I am really lacking of this kind of experiences, and this explains why I am quite a narrow-hearted person.
Will find ways to change in future, hope my future girlfriend changes me.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I was Food Poisoned...but it was great!

Obviously cheap stuff will always bring some inconveniences to the people who greed for them.
Well, Father's day, a day to show our appreciation to our dearest father, so mum gave a really wrong suggestion to eat a steamboat dinner in Seri Kembangan, Serdang. That dinner only cost me RM 13.80 per person, sounds worthwhile. Yup, it is cheap and that's why my mum suggest that to me since it was me to "belanja" them in this occasion. It was cheap but it was also dangerous.The steamboat set up was like a korean steamboat style which you can cook your seafood in two ways, first way you sizzle it or you just do it the usual way, dip the raw into the hot sup.....the setting was so lousy and hot oils will keep on spilling everywhere and sometimes it gets to your face.... the place was not air-conditioned, hot like hell, smoky smoky and smeeeelllyyy!!!! A suck environment to have your dinner where you need to wipe your sweats on and off with your arms....

Okay, dont mention the place was lousy, mention the after-meal incident on the second day, my stomach started twisting my body on the bed....feel like to puke in any moment and you are so not okay when you stop turning your body around here and there....shit like hell and vomit three times....ahhhhh....feels comfortable after doing those stuff when you see and you will definitely lose your appetite...anyway, eventually I wake my father up in the middle of the nite to seek doctor so I can get some relief.....
Well, my father definitely feels like a nice father that nite cus he helped me to feel better by boiling hot water and mixing the electrolyte drinks for me....i feel being loved...cuz hardly I am treated that way...not from him....feels real good..
I think I will really miss being loved in such ways from parents when I will study abroad in less than a month...I hope I wont home sick much during then...

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I am really a movie maniac.

Well, I really do blame myself of putting myself so vulnerable to movie addiction.
Downloading many up-to-date hong kong series into my 500GB  external hard disc. And quitting my job earlier means letting myself doing nothing. Well, it was kinda guilty cause I told most of the people I need to fully utilise my remaining time to prepare for my university academic stuff. However, movies are still  better options. I even forget my bedtime and try to finish at least 10 episodes a day, end up nose bleeding though.That was too much .MAN!!!
Anyway, it is good to do these crazy stuff once a while since I wouldn't have that kind of chance in future of being so not me. Entering NUS means study harder than any other students from other colleges in order to survive.
In order to kick off such addiction, I have to borrow A Levels Math and physics from college friends in order to get myself well prepared and not to get left out easily in the beginning of the semester. Well, hope I am able to at least start do something really meaningful start from now.
All the best to my own.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

One of the best moments in Life

These are the last few hours I actually have a working desk in Tsun Jin High School.
Packing stuff and clearing the desk for the new Math teacher to take over the place.
At first, I can't wait to quit the job so I would eventually have more time to do my own stuff, preparing myself for university, going for vacations, hanging around more with friends for the last few months before I continue to study.
However, right now I have a second thought, having the feelings that are the opposition of what I assume myself would go through at first. I really feel reluctant to quit the lifestyle of being force to wake up early in the morning before the sun shows himself, I really miss the days when I can really joke around with those kids, they are genuine in every feelings they express with no doubt that is the only place you can guarantee a genuine blessing, a genuine smile, genuine tears, and genuine compliments. I doubt I can find these genuine stuff in the "real society".
Well everything is going to an end, it is time to end my school life. I thank God for the extended school life He gave me, which most of my friends ended this kind of experience 6 months ago after they graduated from Tsun Jin.
Thanks to those kids that told me I did well in teaching, Thanks to those kids that said "You are the best teachers I ever met till now", Thanks to those kids that cry for my absence, Thanks to those kids who loves me much, Thanks to those kids who gave me gifts of appreciation, Thanks to every single genuine words of blessings from the kids before I leave them.

To the students in J1B, J1E, J1G and J1J,
I love you guys and the farewell was one of my greatest moment I have in this lifetime.Thanks to you guys from the depth of my heart

Sunday, May 15, 2011

We change

Over the 5 months in year 2011, I realize human can really change. No exception, everyone changes.


I change from choosing medicine course to electrical engineering. I change from interested in some buddies and eventually end up not even really want to meet up with those buddies. I change from "pretend to be humble" and become really "proud of who I am", which cause many people thought I am a boastful person, which is definitely not true. Definitely has no intention in pulling anyone down by lifting myself up. All of a sudden I like sports, all of a sudden I like Japanese, all of a sudden I like to be alone more than hanging around with friends. Changing into someone better or worse in different ways. Obviously, I guess those who change a lot mainly are those who have not really discovered themselves, have not realized what are the things that they are passionate with and will drive them crazy , and have not discovered what are the things that are really significant to them.

However, I believe each and everyone of us has a destiny, we meant to appear in some areas which we can discover who we truly are. And, in order to reach that, I believe the process our of changes are necessary for our self discovery. It is definitely a bullshit to become a believer of  "Rich Dad , Poor Dad". Don't understand why must anyone believe in 100% in that book. Come on guys, that is not GOD okay? I don't deny that it is a good book, the idea or philosophy that the book brought out, is just for reference. Not all human is meant to be someone in the society in the same way, no definite way. It is our own effort to discover who we truly are by our very own experiences we gone through every single choices and changes.  

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

If I were 13 again...

Well, I know most of the people will like to be in my shoes. Being awarded as the "Most outstanding student award", being in one of the Top Ten in UEC Bio and Eng, being able to be the "stage man" who always goes up and collect certificates from the VIP of the committee board of Tsun Jin or headmaster. At the end of the day, this fame is just temporary, to emphasize that again,IT  IS JUST SOME STUPID FAME! This satisfaction will not last, not even half a year. Now, I realize how stupid are those who want to squeeze themselves at least to be a candidate of "Most Outstanding Student" in school. The BIG round of  applause for you, your name being lifted high and your photo being able to occupy the space of some board in front of the school hall. It is really nothing, you gain fame just a little while and it is really nothing.

If I were 13 again, I would want to be in one of the sports training team, who can participate in competition together with a team, (especially the volleyball team in tj), a team where you can find true friends, friends that I will eventually still able to remember during my sixties,  working as a true team and bring back some victories together, not individually. I think this friendship that is being built through this process is really lasting as it goes through hardship, and most importantly the trust you have for your teammates, it is all those elements that a true friendship should get through. Honestly, every time I pass by some students who are training together, I really wish I could just change into my sports attire and join them, other than just looking at them. Perhaps this is one of the interest I really have during my school life but it is really late to realize this now. It is just a stupid idea, pursuing all those "Most excellent student" awards, which I really do feel nothing right now, not even really proud of that also. I should have go for what I am interested, follow what my heart want during the past few years, but not trying to get FAME....it is temporary, it is just a deceptive candy...feels good at first but blinded you from what really suits you...

It is not that only the sports team can provide true friendship, i can't deny I find true friendship in other ways, in my previous band i do have friends that i like most, but it is the feeling of there is a place(sports team) i should be in and the environment  I really desire. Well, i ended my secondary school life in the way that don't really please me, but perhaps I can make some differences in university. Still it is not a regret to go through that kind of high school life, it is just another different gain.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

15/3

Today I realize, everything needs a balance. Like it or not, balancing comes automatically in any ways.
And today is the forth day of school break, I am really doing craps over the past few days and I find myself getting bored with movies, internet games, sleeping all day. There is an overflowing emptiness in me that drives me start studying again since I have quit that kind of lifestyle for a few months. I really start flipping through some medicine encyclopedia, it should have bored me, but eventually it doesn't. I don't know why it is kinda interesting reading boring stuff. 

On the same time, I am spending a lot of my time with my best friend lately( the one whom I have been keeping in touch with every now and then, and meeting at least once a week). We watched many movies which are very interesting and indeed impressing. We go shop for nice stuff we need together (very awkward to say "shop", cause we guys don't really like those stuff"). We hang around at the "mamak" stall at late night. Life doesn't really bored me to death with this friend.

But I slowly I find things that should be interesting is going lame and boring, and I feel something that should be lame and boring is kinda gaining my attention and I am really attracted to it. Does that mean I grown old? Or it is just a normal reaction when you have been enjoying the same kind of lifestyle so long and you just need some 'refreshment'? Something new, something you wouldn't have loved but you start loving..Just like people who eat salty food everyday, and they wish there will be a week they can just grab a carrot and drink tap water?...ya, I think the last explanation will be the conclusion.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

For March

March just reminds me I am about to get another year older...that's all?
Well, cannot be "that's all"..
I am really touched by my student whom I gave them tuition for almost a month...
These students are really simple..They believe in every single word I have told them..
They really believe I can't give them tuition  on Saturday just because I want to go after some girls to see if any of them are suitable to be my girlfriend and perhaps future wife...but the fact is, I am just a lazy head who doesn't want to teach on weekends...
I see "simplicity" in these younger friends..they remember every words I have told them and took them really seriously...even when I am talking craps...they just believe...
Man!!!  These people really have faith in me...and that really motivates me to teach them better...Now, i DO REALLY want to help them to score A in math UEC ...they are good students and perhaps to me...are very special friends...Friends that barely even know me for a month but have shown care and being so friendly...
They bought me a birthday chocolate cake and playing a fool with me by adding extras "stuff" into my cake...
First time in my life I tasted three kinds different taste in a cake....luckily they didn't kill my digestion...
Friends that barely know me...remember my birthday ??? and friends that have known me for long dont??
Sounds a bit ridiculous...
Three of these students plan a surprise for me...and did an early celebration because they may not have the chance to meet me on my birthday...they said they didnt finish their assignment and spend two nights designing a very special birthday card (it's a list of hot chicks which i find most of them disgusting) for me...well, i really really appreciate that...that hand made card is obviously showing that those students put in a lot of effort...

all in all, when I have grown up', it is really hard to find friends that are simple and selfless.... these three younger friends really really did make me miss the simplicity of being a friend showing his/her concern to one another...

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Gonna be a month in Tsun Jin being a Math teacher..

Can't believe I am really really doing what I am doing so far...
After the day I graduated, being a teacher in Tsun Jin is the last thing on my list that I wanted to do in my
GAP Year...
Can't reject what my headmaster have requested...Just have no better reason or excuse to say "no" to him..
Help out our school which has nurtured us till who we are today seems to be an obligation but not an option.
It is like a debt...I have to repay this school...well, honestly... 60% of me hate this, but I always remind myself to be a good human being to repay anyone who has already done something good for me or help me even once....I can't be so cold blooded to just leave the problem of the shortage of math teacher to all the teachers in Tsun Jin who already have enough trouble to deal with everyday...well, although the salary is not high, however at least I have a fixed working hours...a safe place to work...a place where I can always see my juniors and know whats going on with them...and experience my throat out of order because of the little monster that I have to face everyday...it is still an experience which I will not have the chance to gain in future if I just give it up now...I should have been grateful for this chance given...
Well, at least after I quit my job, I can say I have cleared part of my debt in Tsun Jin....at least I did something for you Tsun Jin...

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Nightmare?!! Not really, it could have been worse than this..

Every new year eve, I will spend my time at home..watching movie..listening to firecrackers which I can't really see them ...but only listening to them.. sharp at 12.00a.m.
This year, my new year eve was....M I S E R A B L E ....
Everything seems great at the beginning...I managed to buy my working clothes in the Mines..
Accompanied by my best friend Kent, and we have had fun watching Gulliver's traveller...stupid but funny comedy..My friend managed to be employed by Nando , in the Mines...RM6/hr pay...which is not bad....he was happy with that, because eventually, he was able to work partime...first time in his life...not just working for his dad...:)...his first trial...first experience...

In the evening ..we spent time in Hui Yen's house, eating steamboat, playing mahjung, talking about what our future will be in five years time...cause this will be our last gathering and then, gradually there will be separation, all pursuing our own studies overseas and some locally...Don't even know when will be the next time we will gather again...:(..

When the clock ticked to 12am, we played with the tiniest firecraker I have ever seen...on floor..=.=..
However, after that, we were entertained by the nice fireworks released by the rich family who owns a four storeys bunglow..

On the way back, the nightmare begins!!!!!
First, car tyre punctured in the middle of the highway....not just a highway, it's a dark highway, no lamp that may function!!!Not even one....luckily we have torchlight in the car...THAT, really saved the day...a Big , Sharp screw ,spoilt one of the tyre...
Well, then just change the tyre and use the spare one..no big deal.....we are just afraid of some robbers just set whole thing up...to get to us....fortunately, we didn't see anyone suspected near the car....but we were still afraid...
Okay, the tyre problem was fixed, now what, the car battery ran out!!!! what in the world!!! why all bad things happened all at once??..this time, we would have to use our torchlight as a signal to let the vehicles that may come from our back to know there's a car in front of them, cause they couldn't see as it was DAMN DARK!!!! Btw, I was a prey to the mosquitoes.....why they like me more than my friend??!!! NOT FAIR..
...Well, not all cars with loud rock music are driven by the bad guys...that morning, around 2.45am, a car came to us, with DAMN LOUD ROCK MUSIC , and offer us help, but we refused his help and thanks him, Thank God he is not the robber!!!!!
Around 3.40am, my friend's sis came to our rescue...we managed to get the battery recharged and we were both home safe......
Btw, on this particular day, a news reported some teenagers car broke down in the middle of some road and eventually some robbers took the opportunity to rob them, one of them have one of his arm chopped down..and then ended handicapped..

Well, things weren't great in the early morning to me and my friend in year 2011...but it could have been worse than that..
At least, we are safe and peace without any harm....just being scolded by mum and dad...but no big deal...
It's a lifetime experience which others wouldn't have that kind of chance to experience that..
We're glad these things happened...it's suck but...we like it...it's the memory that only we both share too...NOT BAD~