My new start in Tsun Jin...

Over the last six years, I stepped into Tsun Jin as a student...
In less than a week, I am going to be going in as a temporary teacher..
Feels weird, my first time...and it's going to be my last time..since I have determined to be a doctor...so, I don't think i will have any other opportunity to work in other fields other than the medical field after graduating from a medical school...
Wondering how am I going to manage the form 1 students...
They may not be the same as what I was back 6 years ago...Very different...
This group of new students can handle multitask , they may know things much more than teacher does, they are prone to distraction since many cool things around could have drawn their focus away from study..
Teachers may not know their language...Language that can drive them to listen and focus on the teachings..
It's a new challenge...It's a different start...And I think it will be fun and I may love it...
As long as I place my heart and mind in this new task...I believe I can enjoy and learn much more from it...better than I can ever imagine...although the pay is not high working in Tsun Jin ......XD.....

22/12/10

Today...It's definitely my day!!!!
This morning just don't know why my mind just woke up by itself..at 7.00am...
well, I know I am anxious about UEC result but it's just 7.00am!!!! not even 9am...close your eyes and just sleep ...don't think much.....enjoy your bed!!!!...well, when it reached 9.02am.....the mind..woke up as if got shocked again......."sms to find out the result...why wait?!!!!"...
this was how I read my sms....I covered my phone screen with my palm and then and move down slowly once at a time.....as if..those who are gambling...enjoying the nervous atmosphere ...not knowing what digit/or letter it would appear after your every slight movement...damn.....A1....OK, its good......A1 again!!!!damn good !!!!A1 AGAIN!!!!...welll, pls let that continue.!!!!!!!...moving slowly......arh!!!!!!!!...A2 !!!!!???? what's the sub??? ADD MATH(2).....OMG.....well...I just gave up that kind of excitement and I look through everything immediately!...well...not bad....only an A2....At that moment...screaming like psychopath on bed....wondering if my neighbour will get worry....sounds like being raped....haha who cares.....its a sound of awesomeness...celebration......
Thank God for that result.....it's the kind of result I have requested...I prayed for the result will be at least 8A1s for myself a night before....God heard it!!!!...By the way, I agreed I deserved an A2 for add math(2)...cause I am not that kinda nerd who is  so into math....more on BIO...great morning ..great start.!!!...


Looking forward to celebrating that achievement now...can't wait....yeah!!! good job -->to myself!!

16-18/12

Well, these three days were better than worst....cause I wasn't alone at least...
Days must be really terrible after I get used to living with my fellow buddies from s3s2...
Start missing them day after day.....Gotta get myself busy with something to distract myself from that kinda awful feeling...

The three days in hometown.Kedah was kinda fun and boring....
Fun part was to play with my baby nieces....Really sad cause some of them grown up so fast I have missed out their very very cute and naive period ....and some of them are not cute when they have grown up.....they just gets prettier and prettier.....the best is to remain them in 8-9 months old....that would be prefectly fine to play with....XD
 Other fun part was to watch TIA CAI CHONG CHONG CHONG on PPS.....
really fun to watch that cause it was really hilarious....NONO is the best player in that show....love him .....humorous and damn smart in a stupid face.......


Boring when there was nothing to do but just eat ,eat,eat and just eat during the wedding dinner...and listened to some uncles singing out loud with the kareoke......luckily they didn't break my glass with soft drinks inside....terrible loud and ugly voice....Don't they even notice??
Who cares, marriage is always a celebration...as long as everyone has fun during the dinner....

Start searching part time job next week....

13-15/12

These three days will be one of my best moment throughout year 2010..
Spending all my fun moments with Wei Chuan, Sam Loke, Kar kin, Ah Kit, Ah kiat, Ah lian, Goodgoodboy, Xuan Yang, Song Yu, Kenneth and Yong Jie....+ me...total 12 buddies doing whatever we want to do at Genting Highland... It's the best going to the outdoor theme park with friends than with our own families..cause, we play lots of extremely crazy stuff which we can't do them with parents cause most of them are afraid of heights and other adrenaline-stimulating stuff ....

SPACE SHOT....the five-star thrilling ride...from the earth to the sky...and from the sky to the earth....suicidal experience...you can't feel your butt on your seats !!!! This is the most insane ride I have ever had throughout my life....And I am quite proud of myself cause it's my first time on that ride....and I did that five times in just a day....well, I am indeed adventurous..Thanks, to Goodgoodboy and Ah kiat, they companied me for my first ride on that life-taking machine......

It's great to go Genting Highlands on weekdays cause we didn't really need to wait a long time for our turn...fewer visitors...play as many times as we could!!!!!especially the outdoor session at night.!!!!...

Play station and poker games were on all the free times, steamboat for dinner and supper, spagetti for branch!!! Eat all kind of junk food..Eat as much as we could!!!!..  It's what most of us wanted to live like for once in a while for real relaxation and to pump ourselves up for greater things ahead waititng for us to do in our future ....!!! It's the last trip and it's a great ending!!! However ...really reluctant to leave you guys...T.T

Bon Jour everyone!!

Another repetition

Well, today was kind of sucks..and fun
Didn't do well in the speaking test for IELTS and wondering what score will it turn out to be...
Aiks !!! I have no idea my topic will be something related to noise!!!!!!
I should have visited night market often since I have nothing much to tell regarding night market and relate it to noise......Pathetic!!! ARR..........Die....RIP!!!

Same kind of mistake...Being unable to perform well because I lack of some kind experiences!!!!
This kind of situation repeat over and over again...

Today...Dinner with Chi Kin and Zhi Xin was great!!!! really great~!!!
Shabu 1..the same place and for the same reason.same food...same atmosphere.same people. Repetition...

Repetition...was both good and bad...both delightful and annoying
both desirable and undesirable ....

Come to me only once please.....to the repetition with bad outcomes
Come to me more than once please....to the repetition with good outcomes...:)

Sunday to Monday (what a damn boring title)

Sunday is the last day of Maha exhibition, which means more cleaning job to do for the last moment.
Pushing and carrying, sweats just wet me all the way.
One of the favorite moment will be photo taking with other part timers, they are the great companions and entertainers the moment you are getting bored with your boring, standing and promoting stuff.
Thank God, we met such fun buddies who can make our day better.

Monday, off day. With mahjung game, a night before, till three in the morning, we manage to wake up at 12 pm.
What a lousy lifestyle but indeed comfortable and fun doing that long time once :)..
It's like a comedy day for this day. Watch "How I met your Mum" using the computer, watch the hilarious "superheros movie" in Gita Bayu, and watch the lastest "Due Date" with my friend in Alamanda GSC.
It's all comedy until I am really immune to jokes , comedy or other funny stuff now...

Dinner was great. We ate steak which are not really satisfying cause I ended up gum allergy to black pepper,
irritated me all night...
great moment for these two days...now...really damn boring

Walking and Standing

I guess now most of us will attempt the part time job which really stress our legs and mouth...
All of a sudden, we become the most talented speaker on earth when our bosses stress us to hit the target sales of the day.
We can even predict so accurately the next move of the customer.
We hate them when they try our product and show their disapproval face expressions...feel like smacking their face..
Especially those who tried our product so many times and complimented the product and just walk away with an evil smile.....
All and all, standing and walking is what we contribute most when we do sales....
Boring and tiring.....
A good pair of Adidas or Nike will come in handy for our pathetic legs....

That was just part of life. The fun part was having different friends from the same field to joke with and learn different stories from different people.
Every people has their own stories to tell..These are the things that make them who they are today.
Some are inspiring while some are just heartbreaking.
Some are decent while some are just provoking.
THOSE are  just tit bits of life....More and more are waiting for everyone to discover....

second night in gita bayu.

After Graduation Trip at PD

Well, to be really really frank and honest......I gave the lowest expectation of fun I could have from this trip before I went ....
At first, speaking of the separation into few gangs in the class...(well it was so obvious)
I think the gangs will remain in the respective gangs and have fun all on their own in the trip...A few of them in class don't want to join the trip for the same reason and thinking it would be really weird as they can't squeeze in to any of those impenetrable bubbles and have real fun in the trip...
Luckily, the fact is ....It was Fun and wasn't that bad after all....
The class wasn't that inconsiderate...and indeed very thoughtful...
Thanks to the games organizers, xuan yang, jing yee, dian heng...the best dance choreographer , Ah Lian....
The night time activities organizer, Adeline...The cook, Chi Chi Moi.....Things wouldn't turn out that great without them....

Woo Hoo!!!! I learn Mahjung and San Guo Sa during the first night ...thanks so much to Kenneth bro...
Especially Mahjung, it's totally fun and it will be our useful pastime when we are in our sixties ....

For the last night in the trip, Adeline came out with the plan of "Happy Hour" ...
Happy Hour is what the boys will click an "unlike" if it appears in Facebook...
It's the time when everyone break some secrets in public and gave some words to encourage one another maybe say some last words to make one another cry....well , those aren't the Boys' stuff...kinda Girlie...
But, it was indeed meaningful ...(of course no ugly secrets were exposed).....
In the act of giving the last words to all buddies, I find it hard to dig some valuable words out from my mind to give them to some of my friends...but some were easy...
The most interesting stuff is...I came to one of my best friends and we totally have no idea what to talk and we began to hug and don't know why on earth we burst into tears...I felt girlie to show anyone I am crying....that's totally not me because "Boys don't cry in front of buddies"....but What the hell, who cares during then....

Today, I flipped through a blog , its Yan Jun's blog...and I found this verse really relevant to my circumstance...."A friend is someone you can be alone with and have nothing to do and not be able to think of anything to say and be comfortable in the silence. -Sheryl Condie"...well...SO TRUE!!!!!

This is how I will remember my friends:
Wei Chuan and Kar Kin- Everlasting Good Guys On Earth...Very Thoughtful
Ah Lian- My favourite dancer...Very serious in his Task
Loke Loke- furry!! too furry!!!! and The Best Dog Ever!!!
Jing Yee- Toshiba....well, a good partner to play with.....
Wei Min- A kind person but can insult and boast really well and you can't even get hurt at any times....
Jun Sheng - Mr. Euler who still needs to work on his self-esteem...
Dian Heng and Shi Yun -we think they are prefectly match together as they really has the HEART OF A SERVANT!!!!...they are the role models of servant hood....I admire them so badly...
Chi Chi Moi- She has the potential to be a good mother and good cook who really cares our three meals throughout the trip....and someone who can cook a spaghetti sauce by mixing two flavors and  still turn out to be two flavors....>.<
Maggie- A girl who always concern of the welfare of others..
Ian and Xuan Yang- Great sport guy...
Teo- Boy!!! He never grows!!!
Shi Ann - Potential Sleeping Beauty
Ah Kit- Future Body Builder but with a six-year-old taste
SY- the kind person who helps you and passionate for the leftover after your meal or even before you touch your meal
SK- very active, too active in outdoors
Yong yu and hui yi- the cool blogger and the cool dancer
Andy and Kenneth - they are the last on my list that I will want to forget them...

Other than the above- still trying to think how to describe them..will come out with some good ideas later..

Process takes time

It's two days after graduation.
Tomorrow will be the graduation trip to PD and Melaka.
Looking forward to spending my last moments with my fellow friends.
After the trip, it will come to the process of getting used to the days when I will spend lesser time in school and with my friends.
The process is a tough one which I hope I can go through it well.

It's freaky cause when we get used to meeting our friends daily and now we can't...until the next time we organize a gathering dinner or whatsoever...It's freaky cause when we get used to the routine set by the school and now we have to plan them by ourselves...not knowing if our plans are allowing us to fully utilise our time in the right way...or worse still dreaming the whole day or watching movie series the whole day...
It is a changing process that examine our self-discipline and willpower to do our preparation for our future ...
It is a changing process that test our preseverance living with or without teachers and friends to watch out for us..

Process takes time...so we assume this will be the long one...
All we do is to stick to our plans until we get used to them...
Human however is way too flexible than we can imagine...

Awful Lunchtime

Yesterday, I had an uncomfortable lunchtime with my friends.
Not because the food was bad ,indeed the food was one of the best.
Not because the environment was unclean, indeed I don't really mind if the environment is dirty or tidy as long as I have a place to sit and eat.
Not because my friends are not friendly, indeed they are fun. I love them, the fact is I hate what they are doing.
I don't mind people gossiping around as long as they don't bring down anyone's reputation.
Gossiping I think its just fine as long as it remains merely for entertainment.

It's the idea of expressing their thoughts publicly with the wrong intention and THAT makes me sick.
That reminds me the world is just full of paparazzi, they just want to dig out the filthy secrets of the celebrities or any VIP and publish them in public in order to get the reaction like "OMG, that really happens?!", or "What the hell, shame on him/her!" from the readers.
Well, that's human being, with that kind of sinful nature..And that's how the mags or news earn their profits ..They knew the ugly nature of ..all of us, we kinda really think we are better when we comment over others shortcomings...Most of us think if our enemies or someone who we dislike or someone who we disapprove their weird characters and they fall one day because of some mistakes they've done, all of a sudden, and we gain our victory from them. Or we should say we get satisfied, huh? 

Well, so most of us feel great seeing other fall, and that makes us think we are superior to the fallen ones...
Who knows what drives us to be that ugly?! Jealousy? Well, maybe...Revenge? Well, it can be...
But all in all, I think the root of all is PRIDE...This is why most of us only show our humility when trials or troubles or failures come into part of  our life...
Well, I don't disagree the fact many of so called the weird ones or the ones whose past was kinda an annoyance to the people around them..Well, most of us judge a person based on what they did in their past...
Even though what anyone did is so terribly wrong in the aspect of morality...That doesn't give anyone the right to shout anyone's ugly past on the top of the roof....especially through blogs, spaces, fb..or whatever in the network that many people can easily access...It's totally crossing the line...   .

Everyone can really be such a crap sometimes in our life, probably most of us didn't even notice that when we are being such a junk...Everyone has their own difficulties that they need to deal with all by themselves, and we should know that and always take into account that we shouldn't add on more troubles to others who has been struggling to do a little bit well in their life...Expressing our thoughts is a good thing to do, but not in the way that exposing someone's failure to the public (politics excluded from this topic), that's the wrong way of handling our thoughts.....

Lastly.....TAME OUR TONGUE!!!!!!!

Compliments

Compliments are both difficult and easy to give to one another.
It totally depends on a person's age, character and emotion.
Praising our peers are just as easy as breathing.
However, that kind of compliment is just merely to win their favor and make them feel good regardless of the truth. It turns out most of the compliments are just another few lies we make daily in order to please someone and to fulfill your intentions. Sounds gross but that's the fact!
On the other hand, if anyone that are closed to us, their compliments are the real stuff! (At least mine does and I do too). Their pretty words are just to build us up not to bring us down.

Things get a bit different when we want our parents to give us compliment. Of course i exclude the westerners from this category since the way westerners educate their children is so much different from the East...Giving their child compliment is as hard as getting a pearl from a closed shell. They think by praising their child, it will hinder their advance in learning, or perhaps they are just being unable to let go their ego and believe their children are better than them or perhaps they just don't get used to praising their children and just being proud of their child silently...That's the culture..Very conservative..

I love compliments and I also hate them too..They can be useful and they can be just another curtain trying not to revealing the ugly truth...Well all and all...Truth is still the best even if it hurts...

Another Boring Day

Really getting lazier and lazier if I continue to live this way...Waking up around 11am...
Flipping through the newspaper..until 12pm...struggling to plan what I should do for the rest of my day...
Reading boring novel n facebooking n that's it....Really can't wait to join a cancer aid institution with my friend..sounds really fun when he recommend that plan to me...Its about going through courses regarding how we should take care of the households with patient who contracted cancer...and some voluntary jobs...sounds a bit tough but it is a good plan to occupy myself rather than getting rot at home....Human being really needs to MOVE....before they become retarded or brain rusted....:)

Nice start

Just about to end my 18....Never thought of starting a blog all these years but I think I should now because I really have plenty of free time in this Gap Year ....Most people spend their Gap Year so recklessly and I hope I will not be one of them....My wise friend told me....Gap Year supposed to be the period when we spend our time alone...reviewing what we have done during high school ...discovering who we really are and finding what we want to be in future...so..I think starting a blog is quite a fresh start ...where I can put down my thoughts and look back in future to see my progress...I hope this will sustain for a long time...cause I am not sure how long can I do this...All the best..to MYSELF