If I were 13 again...

Well, I know most of the people will like to be in my shoes. Being awarded as the "Most outstanding student award", being in one of the Top Ten in UEC Bio and Eng, being able to be the "stage man" who always goes up and collect certificates from the VIP of the committee board of Tsun Jin or headmaster. At the end of the day, this fame is just temporary, to emphasize that again,IT  IS JUST SOME STUPID FAME! This satisfaction will not last, not even half a year. Now, I realize how stupid are those who want to squeeze themselves at least to be a candidate of "Most Outstanding Student" in school. The BIG round of  applause for you, your name being lifted high and your photo being able to occupy the space of some board in front of the school hall. It is really nothing, you gain fame just a little while and it is really nothing.

If I were 13 again, I would want to be in one of the sports training team, who can participate in competition together with a team, (especially the volleyball team in tj), a team where you can find true friends, friends that I will eventually still able to remember during my sixties,  working as a true team and bring back some victories together, not individually. I think this friendship that is being built through this process is really lasting as it goes through hardship, and most importantly the trust you have for your teammates, it is all those elements that a true friendship should get through. Honestly, every time I pass by some students who are training together, I really wish I could just change into my sports attire and join them, other than just looking at them. Perhaps this is one of the interest I really have during my school life but it is really late to realize this now. It is just a stupid idea, pursuing all those "Most excellent student" awards, which I really do feel nothing right now, not even really proud of that also. I should have go for what I am interested, follow what my heart want during the past few years, but not trying to get FAME....it is temporary, it is just a deceptive candy...feels good at first but blinded you from what really suits you...

It is not that only the sports team can provide true friendship, i can't deny I find true friendship in other ways, in my previous band i do have friends that i like most, but it is the feeling of there is a place(sports team) i should be in and the environment  I really desire. Well, i ended my secondary school life in the way that don't really please me, but perhaps I can make some differences in university. Still it is not a regret to go through that kind of high school life, it is just another different gain.